CancerChaser - Chapter 7
Chapter 7 ~ The Last Straw
Trigger Warnings: Harassment, Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Emotional Manipulation, Narcissism, Suicide Mention, Suicidal Ideation
Before I continue, I must address a minor mix up. Last Chapter I introduced a friend who helped me out who I dubbed H. However, back in Chapter 3, I introduced 2 people involved in a internet drama against each other and one of the was [H]. H is not [H]. They are not the same person. H is someone I knew for many years. [H] is someone I never met. Also [H] passed away a year ago and I can confirm that H still is alive. I also must note that [H] passed away weeks before H came to my home to console me for my mental breakdown. I dubbed my friend H and simply forgot that I used the same letter before with [] brackets around it.
The first 6 chapters was the greater context of my telling of what happened between me and CancerChaser and it has been building up to this. Initially, he invaded my life by reaching out to me and making me feel special with positive affection. I accepted his flattery not knowing I was being deceived by him. I was on and off with CC. I gave him many additional chances. I tried being nice to him, hoping he would reciprocate, but that never came through. And here I will reveal what finally drove me to finally end my connections with CancerChaser for good.
I will be getting into more of the circumstances around the issue, but it is important to understand the context around it, so I need to give the full picture of the entire issue.
First, I will bring attention to a small part of Chapter 5, where CC was in my home (second instance) and I was upstairs filling out an work application for a convention. 2 months later, I received an email where I got accepted to work there. It was New York Comic-Con 2017 and what I applied for was to be part of the Crew. It was a paid job and I had to submit documentation. I will elaborate on that soon. Being part of working NYCC meant being able to attend all days of the convention. Since 2014, New York Comic-Con tickets (except for Thursday) have sold out in hours. They even stopped having 3 and 4 day passes in 2017. And tickets were very expensive for single day (around $60 per day). I was only able to buy Friday and Saturday that year and I had those bought already when I applied for Crew. I had to wait the queue for buying tickets for around 30 minutes. But the most important reason for applying for Crew was to (hopefully) gain a paid job and connections, something I desperately needed to be able to work on providing for my own and take the necessary steps to move out on my own and pay for myself.
I had to do TONS of paperwork to be able to qualify to work there. Like the previous con I talked about here, I had to update more of my documents. I had to send papers back and forth. I even needed help from family to figure out how to fill out tax exemptions. There was more papers than the previous con I worked for.
I also was trying to meet up with connections as well. Connections that could possibly help me with employment. And they were going to be available in the area around New York Comic-Con. But only the days leading to NYCC they would be locally available to me. So I had to work diligently to find when I can meet with them at their earliest convenience. Many of the days (around 2 weeks) leading up to NYCC (which took place October 4th to 7th) were already claimed by the middle of September by either NYCC (October 4th to 7th and the 3rd for the orientation); meeting connections I contacted (September 25th – October 2nd) or something else I will be talking about now.
The Super NES Classic was also launching around that time as well. September 29th to be exact. I first learned about it in the live stream I watched in that summer I mentioned last chapter. Hearing about these news: I checked Google and got the confirmation. I was very excited for these news and I needed to get one for myself. I grew up with the real Super NES and had very strong fond memories with it when I was very young. I felt that I needed to get it when it comes out, not just because of the excitement, but also because of the availability issues of the predecessor, the NES Classic.
The NES Classic was initially released in November 11th and it was sold out very quickly when it came out. Scalpers started capitalizing on this and purchased as many as possible to resell for at least double the price for profit. And due to scalpers, the NES Classic kept getting sold out each time it restocked. For some reason Nintendo decided to discontinue the NES Classic for unknown confirmed reasons. This set the tone for the Super NES Classic and many people including myself have worried that the same scenario would play out for the Super NES Classic and that the only way I would be able to get one after day one, would be to pay scalper prices for them. I initially even wanted to buy the NES Classic, but because of unforeseen budget problems, I had to pass on it in favor for Pokemon Sun/Moon. And I was shocked to see the NES Classic get discontinued. This is why I felt I had to take care of this potential problem, so I can have my Super NES Classic without having the same situation with the NES Classic.
Even though, both the NES Classic and Super NES Classic are currently well in stock today; there is no way to know that would happen during September 2017.
I would also point out that NYCC tickets were also scalped, too. Mainly multiday and all non Thursday passes were often scalped right after being sold out.
In many places, especially popular cities like New York City: there is a culture of getting early in line to capitalize in events. This happens all the time, especially in NYC. I’ve seen it many times, in NYCC and even in Rockefeller Center. And getting there early is very crucial to do to make sure you get in an event, get a signing form a celebrity, any item that is distributed for free or anything else like that. There have been times where even getting in on time for the event is not enough. One day, I’ve arrived for Charles Martinet (voice actor of Mario) autograph signing when wristbands for that were about to be scheduled for distribution and not only did I not get a wristband because they ran out; but the event ended and I was the 5th person after the last person and had to see it end in front of me. This is why I had to arrive as early as possible to buy the Super NES Classic.
As the days for the scheduled days got nearer; news of the Super NES Classic release got even more intersting. The Nintendo New York Store release of the Super NES Classic had its own party. I often get Nintendo games (if I can) on launch day in this store, because they often have the best purchase bonuses. And the NES Classic also had its own party as well. But unlike the NES Classic Party where the first 250 people can get in; the Super NES Classic Party was limited to 150 people! And all 250 wristbands ran out in about 45 minutes.
This put a ton of stress on my mind. Not only did I have to deal with the stress of dealing with the upcoming NYCC job along with connection meetups; but also trying make sure I can attend this party to secure my Super NES Classic. I had to cancel a connection meetup to make room for this. Specifically September 28th. If it took around 45 minutes for 250 wristbands to be claimed, then 150 would be gone in less than 30 minutes easily. I had to be among the first 150. I could not take any chances here. I needed secure the console I wanted. So I needed to camp out early if I wanted to succeed.
To summarize this is what was going on the background of my life:
- I was hired to work New York Comic-Con 2017 as Crew and had to fill out extensive paperwork. I had to attend an orientation and work for 4 days after that. (October 4th-8th)
- I had to take initiative and seek employment opportunities to better my life and that took up many days around the above. (24th-27th of September, September 30th- October 3rd)
- I had to secure the Super NES Classic before it sold out and in the face of a potential discontinue at the time. Which meant even more days occupied. (September 28th-29th)
All of this happened in the 2 weeks timespan. And in this timeframe is when I had to deal with the following inicident regarding CancerChaser; which is the most egregious of all.
{8} One day during this period of time CancerChaser told me that his roommate was gone and asked if I could come to his house. I told him that I cannot because I was busy with work. On September 26th, I was on my way to buy cardboard. He found me outright in person and asked me again if I could come to his house or if he could come to mine. I replied once again that I cannot because of work, but he interrupted me before I could elaborate. He then talks over me and asks this:
"So you don't like me anymore? Is that it?"
At that point, I had enough of his selfishness and lost all patience with him. I just told him something like "alright fine!" and stormed off. In all of the time I spent bonding with him, I gave him multiple chances hoping things would get better. I had hope for him. I thought despite our differences, he could be amazing to me, but after disregarding EMPLOYMENT; I could not take it anymore. CC was getting in the way of me making money, solely for the sake of his own pleasure and had no regard for my needs. I cannot have people like him as a friend because I felt he was activately trying to prevent me from what I needed to do. I could not take anymore of him and had to cut him off for good. He is no friend if he acts this way when I need to do actual work and he cannot accept that. Friends do not prevent friends from working real legit paid jobs. CC crossed the line by attempting to pressure me out of it. It was either going forward for my professional oppurtunities for employment to better my life among other things without CC or keeping a useless friend at the cost of important matters. CC or jobs. I chose jobs. I never regreted this decision, even after what happens next chapter. Yes, he actually does things afterwards. Pretty awful. Specifically bullying and harassing me.
After I got home, I typed out some angry texts at him telling him what I really thought of him and once again cutting ties with him, this time permanently. And I meant it more than ever. This is what I sent him.
His reply what was some stupid crap about me needing professional help. Professional help does cost money. And I need to work for it. Work is what CancerChaser was preventing me to do because his convenient time was already claimed well ahead of time and he only cared for himself and never considered what I had to do. How delusional can he be?
This "man" is in fact, near Quadragenarian in age. He appears to look as if he has children of his own or at least has many jobs under his belt. Nobody in their right mind would think he is minor. He is older than not just me, but my eldest sibling.
HOW DOES HE NOT KNOW THE IMPORTANCE OF A PAID JOB!?
And yes, he has worked. He told me he had a job when he was lambasting me over a smartphone. And I can confirm he has a LinkedIn page with at least one job where he worked for many years. He should know better. This is what I had to deal with. I reiterate; I am younger than him, to the extent that I entered his age range as he is exiting it. And even I know the importance of paid employement while this much older man is acting like a child using antics I grew out of as a teenager. Ironically, him angrily asking him if I did not like him anymore, made me finally stop liking him the moment he said that.
I could have tried to compromise and agreed on a day to see him. If he was a little more understanding and less abrasive, I could have picked out a day for him. I would have tried to accomodate him. One of the days cancelled the day after CC's boisterous selfish actions (September 30th), so I would have set aside a day to see him. But of course, he was being audacious and inconsiderate. How can you have an agreement with someone who is this emotional when he is not getting what he wants? Talking over me, being abusive, and not wanting to hear any truth that hurts him. He wanted me and he never cared if I had any obligations. And also I did him multiple favors and came through for him up until that day; yet he hardly did any favors I asked for him. I asked him multiple times to play games with me. That is all I wanted from him and he only did it once out of multiple asks, and he did not even finish that (and it was one of the most easiest games ever). I had reached out to him and he was hardly considerate to me. He does next to nothing for me, but I always come through for him very often when possible.But the moment that I cannot; this is how I get treated. And also, I could have shown him emails of my job for proof. All he had to do was ask. He wasn't even bothered to do that.
I had to turn him down and get rid of him. I had no other choice. There no way I would chose to waste oppurtunites on him. And he often wanted me very badly, but I did not really need him all that much aside from a second player, which I just gave up on him after he kept using excuses to get out of it. I was more useful to him than he was to me. But when an oppurtunity came to me that was very useful to me, it is logical I chose the beneficial option over a useless leech of person who asks endlessly and gives very little back. And when he could not handle that, it became much more obvious that he was being a manipulative user and abuserIt is from the situation that I finally truly learned saw CancerChaser for what he truly was. I had faith in him until he revealed himself as an immensely the selfish narcissist expoitive monster.
Not to mention, I owed him NOTHING. I don't work for him or under no contract from him. And finally he does not live with me or pays my bills or anything. I am under no obligation from him.